A Walk in Darkness has been a struggle to write. The reasons are numerous, my mistakes are too painful to relive being chief among them. Thus, I quit working on it and started on a Christmas story for the Mississippi Christian Writers Association. I wrote about 6.000 words for the Christmas Story and gradually it stalled. However, a friend and I were chatting last night about it and she recommended I find another way to use it. As we sat there talking and discussing the Christmas Story, it struck me I could use it as part of AWID. Voila! I added another 3,000 words today and it appears even more words may be used before it is all said and done.
It pays to have good people in your corner. May the Lord forgive me when I forget this truth or take it for granted.
1 January 2020
Happy New Year to you all. May the new year bring you good things.
Today I had the opportunity to speak with my pastor. As we made the trek home, I asked him why so many people find salvation and then fall by the wayside. He looked at me and asked me a questioning return.
”How do you spell love?”
I started to spell it but he stopped me. Then he quoted Dr. Dobson. ”Commitment.”
I have been struggling with several different things this month. My failure as a dad, my struggle as a Christian, and the Christmas holiday to name a few. Then there is my struggle as a writer. My words have stopped flowing, I struggle to write more than a few sentences, and some things still hasn’t come together.
It’s enough to frustrate a person.
However, the past couple of days has revealed to me the source of my problems. I haven’t been able to accept there are things I can’t change. My frustration is grounded in this simple truth, “you can’t change what is.”
Thus, my goal for 2020 is to accept what life gives me. To change the things in my life which are holding me back, and to let go of the things I can’t control. I am looking forward to what the new year will bring me.
30 December 2019
Well, its gonna be a Tiger throwdown in the National Championship. Oklahoma laid down like a whipped dog, and Ohio State held on to the bitter end, but Clemson proved to be too much. I was surprised by the officiating, or the lack of it. Both games had their share of hard hits, but the Clemson game was brutal. In the short time I watched the game, there were several shots that should have been called targeting. I understand the importance of the game but it shouldn’t be so important it outweighs the health risks.
Congratulations to the Clemson Tigers and LSU. It should be a great college championship.
28 December 2019
6 attempts at writing about life as an afterthought and still nothing….I started this before Christmas!
I have a lot I want to say but lack the words to say it.
In a professional way, to avoid the finger crushing blow of a pain-filled haiku.
Save me from myself.
26 December 2019