Inside my mind there are two competing voices who want to call the shots in my life. The first voice is loud, obnoxious, and cares little for anyone or anything. I would probably label this aspect of my personality SGT Freeman. Without feeling, or regard to the consequences, this voice wants to dictate every response to every situation. “Say this and see what happens!” Perhaps at one time, this was the right fit for my life. After all, fighting the nation’s wars requires a certain mindset, however, as I grow older, I see no reason for this mentality.
The second voice doesn’t raise its voice to be heard over the shouting of the other. Instead, it drops tidbits of information into my spirit. “Don’t overreact to it, not everything requires you to respond with force.” As I grow older, this voice seems to help me mellow out. Perhaps, it is the voice of maturity finally seeping through the rusted iron of my mind, or maybe it is the outset of a nervous breakdown. However, I attempt to listen to it when it provides sound advice.
Through the years, I haven’t always said the right thing, nor have I always done the right thing. Some decisions haunt me, but my philosophy has always been to try to learn from my mistakes. After all, if I am learning from my mistakes, I am receiving a great education. Mistakes are part of life, none of us live perfectly. As hard as we try, we can’t help but overreact to certain situations. However, overreacting opens the door to stress, and stress can and has proven to be fatal.
I would clearly state years ago, that I once thought I was wrong, but I was mistaken. However, this little statement is full of lies and deceit. I try to be a good man, but life often causes me to be less than a good man. The world has enough bad boys, and worse men. Try as I may, my human nature doesn’t allow me to be the man I should be. However, part of growing is getting up when you have been knocked down. The lesson of life can be found in the movie Rocky Balboa. “It’s not how hard you can hit. It’s about how hard you can get hit and keep going.” I may have misquoted the great philosopher Rocky, but the point is the same. Mistakes are often made, but they can’t define us if we don’t let them.
August 13, 2019