I have been praying and seeking the Lord for His will in my life. Asking, that God will help me to not be distracted. That in my life, I can be molded into an instrument of peace and goodwill. I must confess that I did not expect Him to say yes. In my broken state, God has found a way to let me be used to His glory. The Bible says that “God will not despise a broken and contrite heart.” I am unworthy in so many ways, but the Grace of God is sufficient.
If I can help one person on their journey, then it is worth the price. In my Bible reading the Apostle Paul says that in whatever he state he was in, he was content. I hope that I can find contentment in my spirit. That my heart will not be cluttered with the things of the world. Let me be broken for His glory. The scripture that says, “Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all of these other things will be added unto you” has been on my heart for some time.
To be honest, it has been a long time since I have sought the will of God. It is not a path that is easily walked. There are many distractions, pitfalls, and vices that may arise when we start following or as Rev. T would say picking up our cross and following Him. Burdens do not bring comfort. They bring sleepless nights, hunger, and in many cases brokenness. Rev. Collins asked one night at church if we had forgotten how to weep. In my case I had. Pride does not want to let us be broken. To feel anguish in our souls for ourselves, our families, our community or nation.
Memories surface from time to time in my mind about Morriston Jesus Name Church, in Petal, Mississippi. It is where I received the baptism of the Holy Ghost. There were many issues that culminated in me leaving the church. However, I have never been to another church that could travail and intercede like that church could. We were poor, but we had each other. We knew that we may not have the answers, but God does. We were broken before the Lord and He heard our prayers.
If we are going to experience a mighty, move of God like on the day of Pentecost, then we must learn that nothing else matters but being broken before the Lord. It seems that so many people come to church hurting and they leave without their prayers being answered. Is it because the Lord can’t answer them? No. Sometimes, we must be willing to move into divine alignment. Pastor speaks regularly on being aligned to receive the blessings and anointing of God. God can move and answer but sometimes it is upon us to be willing to move when He moves.