It may come as a surprise to many that I do not know how to live my life fully. Divorce killed my ability to love, and live. It has taken many years for me to come to peace with my past. To move on and give myself permission to live my life. Many of the things that I loved to do prior to marriage and divorce was put upon a shelf and left to make room for the goals that we once shared. When she picked up and left, it hurt. It took me a long time to realize that maybe it was best this way. She found happiness in her life, and I owed it to me to find some resemblance of happiness. While I moved from one failed relationship to another, one day it struck me. I can’t make someone happy if I am not happy with who I am. Simple. Direct. Truth.
I have no idea what I want to do with the rest of my life. I am okay with that. Spontaneous events often lead to the greatest adventures. In time I would like to get remarried. To try to live a life of adventure with someone who understands me. It does not have to be today or tomorrow or next year. I am in no rush. There is plenty of life around here that I can find happiness in. I like to work with wood. Today I am going to create a bookshelf. It will be my first. Excitement and joy can be found in simple little things, it does not take a full wallet and travel to live life. Often, we overlook the important things in life by trying to make things complicated. So, here is to you hard chargers who are looking for the next big thing. I hope you find it. I will be here in the woods, living the simple life. God bless you all. Take care and hope to chat with you all soon.